Daily Prompt: Hopeful

via Daily Prompt: Hopeful

One thing I wanted more than anything in 2016 was to get further in my job, I felt I was deserving of a promotion and went for as many as I could go for. I got passed most stages of tests which are a requirement for promotion in my line of work. Then the first interview came along. I hadn’t done an interview in I don’t know how long so I needed to be prepared. Maybe I over prepared, I would record my voice and listen to it answering any possible questions I could be asked. I would listen to this before bed and almost every day at least three times, I had it drilled in to my head and I really felt ready for the real thing. I had talked to my boss and got some coaching. What could go wrong?
Well the script I had learned off was the only thing in my head its all I would allow myself to think of so when the inevitable questions came up of course my brain could not search for the answers, they were buried they were under my blanket of prepared material and I wasn’t getting anywhere near them. I stayed on my script whether it suited the interviewers or not and needless to say I didn’t get the job.
I was lost, devastated but not down I just kept applying and shortly a second interview for a promotion came up. What to o this time, I cant be as prepared as last time so maybe Ill just not prepare much and let my brain do the work on the day. WHAT WAS I THINKING?!
Always prepare, always give yourself the best chance. I didn’t get the second interview.
I need to find the balance, I will continue to try and do everything I can to get promoted. I will go on courses and read up on interviews and I am hopeful that this year I will do the right things, I will succeed because I will not give up!

Early life

I was a go getter, in school I tried my hardest to be at the top with grades until I met ‘the cool kids’ then I tried to be at the top with them which of course made my grades fall and by the time I released how stupid that was I was in my last year of school and the last two years of trying to make people like me for a different part of me that I didn’t like was so drilled in that I didn’t know how to turn it around. I trying my best to get good grades in my final exams and yes they were okay but not the best I could do, not by a long shot. I had wasted my brains and talents on ‘the cool kids’ who never really liked me. A year after finishing school my mam passed away and I went to a dark alcohol infused place for a long time until my brother got me a good job that I am still in to this day, ten years later. My world had finally turned around because I had the best people in my life looking out for me, my family.